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Weird middle of the month-ness [Jan. 22nd, 2007|08:38 pm]
[mood |okayokay]
[music |Brand New - The Devil and God are title too long.]

I think I'm just terrible at blogging.

Goodbye you liar,
Well you sipped from the cup but you don't own up to anything
Then you think you will inspire
Take apart your head
(and I wish I could inspire)
Take apart your demons, then you add it to the list.

Just thought you might like to read that. I sure did. Brand New is pretty awesome.
And its true. I can never shake that little feeling that I never say anything right.

I hate it more when other people say things wrong. Or they say the right things and it breaks your heart anyways.

You know, I sound like I'm mad at someone or something, but I'm really not. Theres a....situation thats been bothering me, that I can't shake, but things work out for the worse in the end, but we already know that. So you just go on and make the best of it. And it may make it worse, it may make it better. But if you were never going to get what you wanted anyways, it doesnt really matter.
In other news, I really think my friends should do more together. We seem to suck. badly.
Way to go, friends.

Again with the madness. Hum. I'm not coming across well tonight, am I?

I think I'm just blunt and dont like being melodramatic. And everyone else in the world seems to be melodramatic.

My cell phone has died too. Lame cause mah phone is gone. Awesome upside? New phone. Hooray? Hooray-ish. I guess. Cause I probably wont get a free new phone. And between paying for tuition, paying for books, buying a printer, and saving for warped tour....I'm not gonna be able to spend any money till June.
And I was going to buy myself some awesome new headphones too. :(

....warrrppppeeedd tourrrr.


Thats all. Leave me some love, and tell me something I dont know about you.
Or, thats weird, so don't and just comment anyways. haha.

Take me, take me back to your bed
I love you so much that it hurts my head
I don't mind you under my skin
I'll let the bad parts in, the bad parts in
Well you're my favourite bird and when you sing
I really do wish you'd wear my ring
No matter what they say, I am still the king
And now the storm is coming, the storm is coming in
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as christmas approaches... [Dec. 10th, 2006|08:54 pm]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |The Matches - Shoot Me In The Smile]

I really don't have anything to update on.
Now watch me ramble in this giant entry. :P

Um. Exams...are well...exams. err...

I've really gotta do some hardcore work for them. I've been slacking. (re: working) so meh. Gotta pull it out! I always manage to. I've really gotta put effort into it this time.

Next term is looking like fun.
Less english more classics and the occasional retarded course. I'm doing a lord of the rings class. among other things. heh. I'll be good times. I hope.

Staples has been fun. I really love the ppl there, and I think they love me. Heh. Woo! Work love! :D
I sort of want to advance a bit. And if I can't do full time hours in staples then I probably wont be able to. I really do want to apply for the service lead job but not being there 9-5 is going to mean somoene else will take it. Really though, it would just be kind of useless.
However, the staff party was a blast. I was really ultimately not up for it the whole night. I'm glad I went for what I did but I'm not really into those kinds of parties anyways. I showed, I looked hot, I socialized....I did my part. haha.

I'm listening to a new cd from a band called The Matches. They are some hot shit. haha. Its like all my favorite genre's of music all boiled into one. Its just really good pop punk rock music but there are hints of other genres and that all over the place. They seem to have a really distinct sound but every song is really interesting and new and sexy. Goddamn. This is phenominal.

I really love listening to new music. I love it. I need to some how work this into a career option. Honestly. This is crazy. Perhaps this english degree will come in handy.

+4 exams then hanging fn Friday, working sat morning, show sat night, crash on sunday. good plan? go!
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(no subject) [Dec. 5th, 2006|12:46 pm]
I'm eating a turkey and pickle sandwich.

I'm not trying to disgust you, its actually delicious.

I felt the need to update but I'm not sure why. I think its to procrastinate. Because after this I have to start doing some works. Woorrrrkk. I've gotta do my phil. paper. My phil. exam. My R&J paper. My 2002 paperz. And then start studying for exams! Wee!
Well I've got straight until like 3 or 4 today so I think if I actually do work I can get a lot done.

The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me is a phenomenal album. Go buy it. IMMEDIATELY.

Also, December is for Cynics is my new favorite holiday song. <3

I obviously really don't have anything else to say so Ima go.
Lemme know if you want a Christmas card this year! :D
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(no subject) [Nov. 21st, 2006|10:48 pm]
I'm offically retiring OLP from its top spot on my favorite bands list.

Any suggestions on who should replace them?
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(no subject) [Nov. 20th, 2006|01:25 am]
It really sucks to find out that something that you thought something was, never ever really was in the first place. That you were wrong all along. That everything you did was wasted. It never worked out like planned, and thats it.
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We saw the western coast... [Nov. 19th, 2006|09:52 pm]
I had such a good weekend of chances, realizations and fun times.
Fridays show was mad. Just Mad. Completly insane.

Ironically then leading to a spark in a discussion of scene kids. And its true. The generation under us has different priorities. We go to let go. They go to hold on and be trendy. Therein lies the flaw. And its one thing to bitch, its another thing to practice. But its hard to change that. Mainly because you can't really say there is a problem with it in the first place. Does motivation influence whether something is right or wrong?

Nonetheless, that concert was sick. Probably the concert highlight of the term. (Notice I didn't say year? lol)

Then Saturday work wasn't too bad. I had a terrible headache though. Its pretty clear that being dehydrated is really not good for me. It never ends well. I get really bad headaches and it takes a long time for me to get back to normal. I remember when I used to get headaches all the time. No idea how I dealt.

I also saw Casino Royale.
In the front fucking row. haha. That was mental. It was like sitting 4 feet in front of the screen. Whack. I should really never do that again, but I probably will. I have no idea what I think of that movie. I'll wait until I see it again.

....there are lots of other things I want to say but they don't really fit. Why can't I do that? Sheesh.
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Fuckin' Commoname! [Nov. 18th, 2006|01:24 am]
I hurt so bad.
I feel like I was hit by a car.
My ears are ringing. I can hardly talk. My arms are limp and shaky. My neck is stiff. My ribs feel bruised. My feet hurt. I am so dehydrated that my lips are cracking. I can barely keep my eyelids open.

That was one of the best nights of my life.

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Mixx tape, yo! [Nov. 13th, 2006|12:19 pm]
Lets make a mixed tape!

Post songs for me pls.
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(no subject) [Nov. 8th, 2006|08:45 pm]
More plans for another awesome weekend.
I fucking love that I have a social life that I can look forward to. And having friends that treat you like a friend. I want to speed ahead to my greatest moments.

Just never end. Never.
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the weekend / My thoughts on music [Nov. 5th, 2006|12:42 am]
[mood |awake]
[music |Something loud, fast and sexy]

Interesting weekend? Yes.

I worked until midnight and had went just mildly crazy. Only a little.
Was a fun and interesting time. To say the least. Many-a-stories came from it. And I was working with the best people I could ask for.

Today I went to work and basically broke my neck. Woo!
Now I don't have perephiral vision, but thats for wimps anyways.

Immediatly after having intense neck pain all day at work, I went to another Children of Eve show and rocked the fuck out. haha.
So much ridiculious fun. The Jimmy Swift Band were pretty impressive. There shit was tight up until they turned into daft punk. Donno what that was all about. But hey, it was entertaining. Then Fucking COE made my life so much better. Why have I never seen them before? Am I dumb? Jesus. They're set was soo amazing. Maybe it was because they were sober? lol. No. They just own. At life. Ahhh And the fact that I knew some of the songs after only like a week was intense. The amount of moshing for an all ages show took me by surprise, but its not like I'm a stranger to mosh pits. haha. They played a lot of killer songs that I knew. And they played fucking Ghostbusters again! Ahh they own my soul for that. Amazing. I sort of rocked out but didn't mosh. Adam caved and jumped in. Haha. I loved it. I should, next time. Maybe when my neck isn't broken.

So lets talk about my neck. It hurt like hell when I went home last night. I slept on it and apparently that wasn't smart and didn't fix it. This morning I felt like a cripple with my shoulders all bunched up. It wasn't that bad but I went through the day and all the girls gave me tips on how to fix it and it really did help by the end of the day.

And then I went to a goddamn punk show.
Sarah, you are one smart cookie.
About halfway through I got really dizzy. Haha. Then when I left the feeling was just like "ohshit. this is going to be bad" and within like an hour of being home I'm back to not being able to look side to side. Haha. I think I'll be ok. Its definately just stiff muscles and stuff.
I wish that it hadn't had been that bad for the show though. I mean, I could have bitched about it or not gone or whatever, but thats lame. Anyways I'm apparently going to another show next week or something. I'm not really sure. I hear it will be a good time. :D

Thats the only exciting thing for me.

I was sort of thinking about my musical evolution tonight. haha. /dork.
But say, 4 years ago or so I would have said that music was my life and that I loved it and I listened to all these bands and stuff. Really, I only listened to a handfull of stuff but I loved the shit that I did listen to and that made it great.
Say 1 or 2 years ago if you asked me about music I would have said the same thing. Only now I was starting to broaden my horizons and realize how much I liked punk music. That was a very good discovery. However, I sort of steered away from it and listened to mostly safe Canadian bands because I thought I might have a better chance of seeing them live. You can also get from this, that concerts had become one of the highlights of my life. Seeing huge concerts. Knowing the songs. Going fucking deaf from music. Not being able to hear yourself scream...it was the best. But I only really went to staduim concerts and would see like maybe 2 shows a year.
Then I saw the warped tour.
Now I don't care. I'll listen to anything for a few minutes. I need and crave new bands. Its become an obsession. Going to local shows would have started happening, even if someone hadn't begun to drag me there... Just because I really feel like I need to see bands and have that feeling. I had no idea, however that local bands had such talent. I can't wait for classes to end so that I can drown back into my headphones. I relive concert moments over and over. When I listen to bands I just close my eyes and think of what it would be like to see them live.

I think music has become my heroine.
And I've never fucking been happier.
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YEAH! [Nov. 2nd, 2006|03:33 pm]
[mood |okayokay]
[music |Scary Kids / At the Drive In]

Life is kind of nice right about now.

Work isn't bad. Friends are being friends. New Friends are being super friendly. (rawr!)Lots of things to do and people to see, and enjoyable times. :)

Only things to complain about are schoolwork and moody-ness. But hey, you just can't get away from that sort of thing, really.

I juse hope it will all keep up.

I feel like time is passing too quickly. I wish it would slow down again. Like when you were a kid and days lasted years. I can't appriciate all the things that I've got going for me right now, just hope that they keep up. Heh.

Wow. I'm in a mightly vague mood today, eh?
Basically I'm avoiding my English essay. And my Philosophy Essay.
....And all my school work in general.
Instead I went to the UC and hung out with my friends. Bad Sarah!
Really though, I feel like in the last year or two I've grown and changed enormously. Its really intersting. I've definately still got a lot of the same tendenceys but, its like something has shifted in my personality. And I like it. Its really been good socially, anyway. Haha now if only I could get the academically thing down.

Also, I got like 4 new winter coats last year for christmas and now all of them are too big. All of them. Its disgusting. I mean, losing weight is good and all but seriously. I have nothing to wear. I wish I was more vain to care about things like the fact that I've lost weight, but I don't really care all that much. Its an improvment but not a good enough one for me.
Anyways, that is all.

I hope I can do what I set out to do a couple of months ago. :x
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Monday music [Oct. 23rd, 2006|04:24 pm]
[music |Hooray for Humans - Q Before U]

My Chem, here I come.

I also wanted to pre-order new Brand New and +44 (Plus44?) last night on Smart punk. Both come with free shit. I like free shit.

...I am poor. Free shit aint so free when you gotta pay.


PS- whats with the shitty follow up albums?
I've found that after listening to Billy Talent II and Sams Town, neither come close to the original. Why the crappyness, huh? Why?

peace out kids. I've got too much work to not to to stay here.
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(no subject) [Oct. 13th, 2006|11:59 pm]
I feel the need to update but I have no updated information.

Today I did this in paint instead of going to class.
Yes. I did it in paint.
I feel rather accomplished.
Please vote. I wanna win! It would make skipping class sooo worth it.


That is all.

much love and kisses.
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Old song, new meaning [Oct. 1st, 2006|08:29 pm]
I love relating music to life.

I've found for the past couple of days that there are entire albums that I listened to and loved years agonow have a whole new meaning and I'm listening to them and loving them like its brand new. Its the best feeling in the world. Brand new familarity. Something new with something comfortable.

Sometimes you listen too closely and miss the point. And sometimes it sneaks up on you and you listen to the important part that you ignroed before.

When you don't take it too seriously life can be fun.

When people stress its lame. The trick is not taking it out on others and remembering what you enjoy.

I'm a conundrum.
I love to argue with people. But I think thats cause I don't like to fight.
Make sense?
Thought not.

I wont always love these selfish things.
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Killing time [Sep. 28th, 2006|07:05 pm]
[mood |Hopelessly Hopefull]
[music |some terrible band saying "wooahhhh woooaahh woah woah woah"]

Slow and steady progress.
Completly unmeasurable but I can keep thinking that it's doing something.
If it's useless I will be a little crushed.

and by a little I mean a lot.

Its unfortunate that just because I care, it doesn't mean other people will. I've found that I'm a better friend and a better person when I care. It's definately something I work on and doesn't just happen.

One of them pesky life lessons or something.
Kind of silly unless you think that its all going somewhere.

Nonetheless, this could all be for nothing. Again. And nothing would leave me crushed. Again.
And I'm not even letting fears hold me back. Thats the ironic part.
Its fucking scary but I'm not even scared. I'm just trying to, again, care. And thats holding me back.

Patience is not something that comes easy for me. And thats what I need.
and a whole lot of luck.
And maybe hooker boots if they'll help.

Where is my Hemmingway? Where is my hot mess?
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over thinking fun. [Sep. 24th, 2006|11:54 am]
I'm going to the warped tour again!


Ever since I went the first time last summer all I could think about was "I HAVE TO GO AGAIN" and now I know I will. I've already started to plan my trip. I don't particularly care if I have to pay for this myself or if my dad will help but I'm going! And no one stopping me!

Haha. Okay, really though, the only reason I am so definate about going right now isn't because I have tickets or have confirmed some trip already or whatever, its because a friend of mine basically told me that if I'm going, book him a ticket too. And if someone else is definately going. And I'm definately going, then we are both definately going and there is very little that can force us both to not go.
Okay, I'm not sure if that made sense, but my thinking is that it is very easy to crap out of something if you are doing it by yourself. There is no one else you have to support and no one to support you and all that stuff so if I'm going with a friend then we will be able to do it together and it will be lots and lots of fun.

The fact that I'm talking about this in SEPTEMBER worries me. Just wait until next summer!

oooh...maybe I should go in June AND Augest.

That would be fun.

Only mildly obsessive.

... :)
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once in a while [Sep. 22nd, 2006|10:26 pm]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |Peel back your skin]

I'm not sure what mood I am in.
If you talked to me now I would be happy and sound generally good natured.
But sitting here alone, dwelling on the fact that everyone has taken their frustrations out on me today, I really don't feel that way.

I think thats because even the people who are close to me really don't get me.

Ahh thats what we all think, isn't it?

But when I have an opinion I can back and know where I stand... it doesn't really matter because I'm the only one who will know. Its hard to swallow the idea that people don't really care what you think most of the time. But it is most definately true.
On stuff that matters anyway.

So the trips over the summer were good.
Never got the chance to talk about Greece much but it was fun. It feels like years ago that I went. It was less than a month. Actually one month ago I was still there. On beaches. Not working. Or thinking of school. Thinking of where we could go for dinner that evening. It was lovely.

I need time.

Should I move?
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(no subject) [Aug. 7th, 2006|01:39 am]
Being a girl is no fun.
All these silly emotions and moodswings. I feel like every 10 minutes I have a new emotion and none of its sincere.
Maybe I need a nice pushover boyfriend to shove this all onto.

Anyways I am going to be up for at least another two hours or so and its already two in the morning.
Someone please want to come and talk to me on MSN? Please?

I want to stop thinking about the things that depress me in life. I want to stop trying to relive the things that didn't dissappoint me. I just want to live. not relive.

I want to give some meaningful song lyrics that are really vague and interesting but completly useless and unrelated.
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(no subject) [Aug. 5th, 2006|02:54 am]
[Current Location |Early morning bedroom on no sleep and all tunes]
[mood |chipperchipper]
[music |BRAND NEW!!!!]

If it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down.

I forgot how fun brand new were. And how good they were. I finally caved and downloaded the demos. Which I said I wouldnt do. Though I haven't listened to them yet.

I need to organize my music.

And my pictures.

And I need to order pictures.

And I need to find my Motion City Soundtrack hoodie.

But mostly I think I need some sleep.

Have you ever felt disillusioned?

So I'm going to Greece in a week. Weee! I dont really know what to expect. If I'm not excited I dont know if it will be anygood. But it should be. It should be a break from the fall-like weather we have here. Go back to summer for 2 weeks.

I want to dance and shake my ass like fergie.
But I sing about dusting for fingerprints like the distraught boys.
I wonder if I'll ever do either?

I'm currently reading Scar Tissue (Anthony Kedis aka rhcp) and its really good. What are you reading? is it good?

I registared for my classes too. I'm taking some english classes that I'm not to thrilled about. French which shall be my ultimate downfall and inrto to philosophy for R&W. Mental.
This is probably going to be my hardest year at mun yet, but its probably the only time that I've actually had a goal to finish so maybe that will help.
and I have the sexy lappy that I'm using now.

in the shape of a heart that they cut out of stone.

yeah I really did miss this band.
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(no subject) [Jul. 30th, 2006|10:57 pm]
[mood |accomplished]
[music |so much musssic]

May contain extremly long review of Warped tour and/or may also contain gushing and long-winded reviews.
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